Datuk Sosilawati's death...Or not?

The murder case of the millionaire Sosilawati shocks the country, not excluding my family. The story became the main issue during this Raya season. Me, the one longing to become a pathologist is more than excited. I keep wondering wether the case was taken to HUKM or not. Even if it was, I didn’t have the chance to talk about the case from Dr. Swarhib or Prof Shahrom. Yep, they’re the best when it comes to the whole question and answer session.

Basically we know that they were murdered and then the body was burned and thrown into the river. The story is the same one every time in the newspaper, but still sells like hot goring pisang. What’s up with that? I can’t imagine what its like for the family; it must be really hard for them… anyway, all this commotion makes me think of something, DYING MESSAGE

If you watch a lot of detective conan you’ll know exactly what’s a dying message is, and its totally different from a suicide note. Of course a suicide note could also be a dying message too, I learn that from watching too many detective conan too. I’m not sure what’s the true meaning of dying message because I couldn’t find it (on the internet). But base on my personal opinion (correct me if I’m wrong) it’s the last message made in any form by the victim just before their death to tell something about their death, and usually the culprit. And if you watch detective conan you’ll know how twisted a dying message could be, its so twisted that you keep saying “are kidding me?” Maybe the reason I couldn’t find the definition of this dying message is because in real life, do people really make a dying message? Who in the right mind would be so clever think of a twisted way to tell others about the culprit when they know they have no chance to live in this world. I mean when you’re about to die, you couldn’t care less about whatever that will still go on in this world, or you may think of a way to escape or stay alive.

Anyway, I’m way off track… I was wondering you know, what if there is still a chance that some of the victim are still alive? I mean hey, in a murder case where the victims are burn to the ground, you can blind a lot of people, the police, the pathologist, even the detectives. Placing DNAs to a murder scene is not really that difficult… I learn that from watching too many CSI. Me? Honestly, I can think of a way to put the DNA to the murders scene (as if…). if only there was a dying message you know, or some kind of clue to point to whether she really was killed or is still alive. But when I think again, why would anyone want to fake her death in this case? Usually people would want to fake other people’s death (or maybe their own) if there are a lot of benefit. There may still be a possibility you know… so to say that I am 100% convinced that Sosilawati had died, I would say no. but then again, its not like this is my case or anything, hehe…

Making a Difference

you can make a difference

all you have to do is choose

there is always a way to be the kind of person you want to be....

you see what you want

you wish everyday that the day will come

wishing

hoping

hurting....

because every moment that passes by,

you feel that you are not getting closer

to what you want to be

stop

just stop

why is this happening?

close your eyes...

think deep

"why am i not making a difference?"

"why am i still here"

still hoping?

still dreaming?

while the blanket still covers your body,and its warmth is still so soothing

inside that little room

that shell that covers your dream

still in it, hoping and dreaming

have you been fooled?

the time you wasted to entertain you dreams

while the devils whisper lies to your heart

"its not the time yet, you are not ready yet"

when will you be ready then?

what does it take to be ready?

courage

are you scared?

about the consequences?

but is it not true, that Allah knows best?

you are not pushing destiny, you are not creating it...

all you are doing is just opening up your heart and letting it happen

if you want to blossoms

then there is always the obstacles that will stand in your way

but that's what it will always be

obstacles

nothing more than just obstacles

of all the things Allah created for His faithful servants

why are you not being thankful?

is it not the obstacles that will make you strong?

that will add up to your heart a sense of dependence for The One True God

what else do i have to say

to make you see...

that when you follow what's in the holy Quran

Allah is always by your side

do it

make a difference

and live the life you always wanted to live....

Kerna Aku Cinta Padanya

Teman

(http://www.ukhwah.com/article.php?sid=2519)

Atas tautan ukhwah

Juga atas satu dasar yang kukuh

Nan Aqidah Muslim,

Aku melayangkan warkah ini buatmu teman..

Wahai temanku an nisa

Engkau sedia maklum,

Engkaulah hiasan dunia,

Lantaran fitrah itu,

Engkau seringkali menjadi fitnah lelaki itu,

Dan sememangnya itu bukan kesalahanmu,

Tetapi itulah hakikat kejadianmu..

Wahai temanku ar-rijal,
Aku mengetahui kesepian hati seorang lelaki,
yang seringkali mengimpikan seorang teman di sisi,
Dan tentulah temanmu yang diimpi,
Seorang serikandi..

Wahai temanku an-nisa
Aku mengetahui halusnya perasaanmu,
Engkau ingin disayangi,
ingin dimanjai,
Engkau juga ingin menyayangi
juga ingin memanjai..
Dan aku juga tahu,
Temanmu ar-rijal juga begitu..

Tetapi temanku an-nisa
Ketahuilah engkau,
Bercinta itu fitrah,
Tetapi janganlah engkau cemarkannya dengan fitnah.
Kalau benar engkau mengasihinya,
kasihinyalah kerana Pencipta Fitrah,

Dan jika engkau benar mengasihinya
KeranaNya,
Engkau tak kan bisa,
Melunakkan soutul engkau,
Engkau tidak kan bisa,
Melemparkan panahan menggodamu,
Kerana engkau tahu,
Itu bisa menggoyahkan iman seorang ar-rijal!
Dan engkau mengetahui,
Dia punya 9 akal, dan 1 nafsu,
Namun nafsu itu sentiasa beraja,
Dan engkau tidakkan bisa menjadikan sang nafsu itu,
Nafsu raja yang menggila!
Kerana engkau tahu sahabatku an nisa
Dia kan terjerumus ke dalam api yang membara
Andai dia menjadi hamba raja nafsu yang gila..
Adakah benar engkau mengasihinya keranaNya?

Wahai temanku ar-rijal
Andai engkau mencintainya,
Cintailah ia keranaNya,
Letakkan lah Ia melebihi cintamu kepada dia,
Andai engkau mengasihinya keranaNya,
Engkau tidakkan bisa,
Mengajaknya bermukah di taman sepi,
Kerana engkau tahu,
Dia punya 9 nafsu, 1 akal,
Tetapi manakan mampu 1 akal menguasai 9 nafsu?
Andai engkau mengasihinya kranaNya,
Engkau tidakkan bisa menyentuhnya
Walaupun yang ringan-ringan,
Kerana engkau tahu,
Itu sudah MENGHAMPIRI ZINA!
Dan engkau tahu bukan ?
Zina tempatnya di api yang menjunam?
Apakah engkau benar mengasihinya,
Andai kau relakan dia terjun ke NERAKANYA?

Sahabatku an-nisa
Sahabatku ar-rijal
Aku mengasihimu LILLAH,
Lantaran itu,
Dengarlah sedikit pesan ikhlas ku LILLAH,
Manusia mana yang mampu hidup tanpa cinta?
Bercinta tak salah,
Tetapi letakkan cintamu kepadaNya yang hakiki,
Dan engkau kan merasa cinta manusia ..
Sedikit cuma..

Andai Dia yang engkau dahului,
Engkau takkan gelisah,
Andai dia tidak mengirim sebarang sms,
Andai suaranya tidak didengar walau teknologi di
depan mata,
Engkau tidakkan rindu,
Andai sehari tidak besua,
Engkau tidakkan kecewa andai dia terlupa
mengatakan
I love you.
Kerana engkau percaya..
DIA yang terbaik..

Lantaran DIA yang terbaik
DIA akan menentukan yang terbaik untukmu,
Dan andai dia yang terbaik untukmu,
DIA akan satukan juga hatimu dengan hatinya..
Dan itulah sahaja melalui PERNIKAHAN
Dan itulah yang terbaik buat kalian
Kalau ada jodoh tak ke mana..
Yakinlah!
Apakah benar engkau meyakini takdirNya?

Maafkan aku teman,
Bicaraku penuh ketegasan,
Aku tidak membencimu,
Tetapi aku membencimu munkar itu,
Dan kerana aku takutkan api yang menjunam itu,
Aku menegur yang mana mampu,
Kerana aku takut,
Andai aku tidak menegurmu,
Kita kan sama-sama meredah lautan api,,,
yang terlalu pedih, yang terlalu seksa, yang terlalu AZAB!!!
Nauzubillah min zalik

sama-samalah teman
Pagarilah imanmu
Agar si iman itu tidak terlepas
Cintailah IA,
Kerana DIAlah penjaga iman kita..
Yakinlah dengan IA..
Serahkan segalanya pada IA..
Kerana DIA tahu yang terbaik
Sedangkan kita tidak.
ALLAHualam.
Akhirul kalam
Letakkan si DIA dalam hatimu,
Engkau akan merinduiNYA
Andai harimu tiada ingatan kepadanya
Engkau akan gelisah andai DIA

Tidak mendengar rintihanMu,
Engkau kan rindu
Andai DIA tidak memandangmu,
Engkau kan tak keruan andai
Doamu ditolak..
Dan itulah cinta hakiki..
Kerana engkau yakin
Di sana adanya sebuah
Pertemuan di taman Syurga yang Indah..
Bercintalah kerana ALLAH..
Dan Engkau akan merasakan
Erti bercinta yang sebenar
Insya ALLAH!!

(http://www.ukhwah.com/article.php?sid=2519)

On My Birthday

On my birthday...

I receive 2 very sweet and wonderful gift

From my two very sweet and wonderful friends

Rahmah and Izzanis

Yep, dats my rumiee~

Every year they would wish me a happy birthday without fail

At the middle of the night

Haha… yea,I guess I was expecting it too…

Not because I want it

Just because I knew they would

(but yeah, who wouldn’t want that right?)

The gifts I receive this year

Is slightly different from the previous times

To think that both of them had the time

To “handmade” my present

this is how it looks like...kawaaiiii....

"guys if you're reading this, i just like to say how meaningful these gifts are.., I may not be so gooey and squisshy that night, but deep inside my heart i really appreciate these gifts. i hope we will be friends for ever, and i really mean it... since we live nearby lets promise that it will happen ya? lets juz grow up together n face life challenges together in this path of da'wah that we had sworn to follow for eternity...i wanna wish FRIENDS FOREVER.. and i actually really really mean it this time...:D"

Another great thing about this birthday, is the facebook celebration. I guess this is the first time I had my birthday wished through the facebook. Well, because I just had a facebook for this year. Yeah, I never thought it would be that lively there. Even though there was a lot of birthday wishes, I try to thank em all… there’s an important lesson here for me, on people’s birthday it’s a good thing to wish them a happy birthday through the facebook, because it will decorate their walls, and this makes them happy…:D

Last and definitely not least is the gift from Allah…

I receive motivation, happiness and just before the holy month of Ramadhan too… how lucky! I need those two to make it through this historic month of the year. This year is the best Ramadhan ever! With the study week and exam just around the corner, our force to ‘tawakkal’ will become so much stronger! insyaAllah…

Color your heart

When I was asked to 'color your heart'

I thought I always be able to color it differently

But from the state I had been

I can only stain it with the black coal

But it seems so hard (the coal did not give so much color)

I take my pen

and I scarred it some more

while in tears

I know I did this to it on purpose

I'm sorry heart

but I realize

I can have a clean and beautiful heart

I need to be confident in Allah

to always believe in Him

Allah takes care of everything....

In usrah today

a hadith touched my heart...

sesiapa yang memusuhi kekasih (waliKu), maka Allah mengisytiharkan perang terhadapnya. Tidak ada satu perbuatan diri (taqarrab) kepada Aku oleh hambaKu yang lebih Aku cintai selain daripada kewajiban-kewajiban yang aku fardhukan ke atasnya. HambaKu akan terus beramal menghampiri diri kepadaku dengan melakukan amalan-amalan sunat sehingga Aku mencintainya. Apabila Aku sudah mencintainya maka Aku (menjadikan) pendengarannya dengannya dia mendengar, penglihatannya yang dengannya dia melihat, tangannya yang dengannya dia memukul dan kakinya yang dengannya dia berjalan. Jika dia memohon sesuatu dari Aku nescaya Aku berikannya. Dan jika dia memohon perlindungan Aku (dari sesuatu) nescaya Aku akan melindunginya. Aku tidak pernah ragu dari sesuatu yang Aku lakukan seperti Aku ragu (hendak mengambil) nyawa hambaKu yang mu'min, di mana dia membenci maut sedang Aku tidak suka menyakitinya

Al-Bukhari

A lesson from Tamaki...

I always ask myself what makes me happy. I realized that its not really important what makes me happy, it is what makes others happy, that is what will make me happy. I mean, if i spent time in the dark wondering what make me happy, and all this confusion is wiping off the smile on my face, how would the people around me feel about that?

I recall that I also don’t like seeing my friends who separates themselves and always in the dark. I wouldn’t know much how to make them happy and that is somehow frustrating. If that is the case then how should my case be different? I have a few people telling me how much they miss that smile on my face and my cheerful spirit, I realize that I was happy before and that made others happy, so why am I still asking the same question?

I wanted to be save, but I don't know from what. I can feel it, there was a presence of a very strong live, always saving me... Allah, never had Allah abondoned me while I'm in this journey of finding myself... I feel like I had betrayed the One that truly Loves me, a Love that nobody in this world can compare to...

Have I been selfish...

Ramadhan O Ramadhan

one of my masterpieces that never made it out...hehe..

by Asma Sadia

One night I heard a knock on my door;
Who can it be,I wasn't quite sure.
I open the door and am filled with glee;


The visitor ahead is no stranger to me.
I welcome the guest with utmost delight;
For I know it has come to give me respite.


An air of happiness fills the space;
My home now seems, a better place!
Have you any clue who this visitor could be?


Yes!its Ramadhan,the month of mercy.
The pious and righteous can't await its arrival;
Others seem to greet it, with waves of denial.


For Allah(SWT) we fast from dawn to dusk;
For Him our breath is the fragrance of musk.
The muslims who pray and fast with zest;


Are aware of the rewards of this month manifest.
Throughout this month we weep and repent;


Now is the time to strongly lament.
And those who shun this sacred month;
on the Day of Reckoning will face the brunt.


In the last ten nights,hides the Night of Decree;
Allah(SWT) then awaits for his slaves to plea.
The angels descend with Gabriel(AS) in the lead;
To check on the steadfast and record every deed.


A feeling of grief now fills my heart;
As the month of Ramadhan will soon depart.
So lets make a start and worship Him alone;
Now that the worth of this month is known.