Color your heart

When I was asked to 'color your heart'

I thought I always be able to color it differently

But from the state I had been

I can only stain it with the black coal

But it seems so hard (the coal did not give so much color)

I take my pen

and I scarred it some more

while in tears

I know I did this to it on purpose

I'm sorry heart

but I realize

I can have a clean and beautiful heart

I need to be confident in Allah

to always believe in Him

Allah takes care of everything....

In usrah today

a hadith touched my heart...

sesiapa yang memusuhi kekasih (waliKu), maka Allah mengisytiharkan perang terhadapnya. Tidak ada satu perbuatan diri (taqarrab) kepada Aku oleh hambaKu yang lebih Aku cintai selain daripada kewajiban-kewajiban yang aku fardhukan ke atasnya. HambaKu akan terus beramal menghampiri diri kepadaku dengan melakukan amalan-amalan sunat sehingga Aku mencintainya. Apabila Aku sudah mencintainya maka Aku (menjadikan) pendengarannya dengannya dia mendengar, penglihatannya yang dengannya dia melihat, tangannya yang dengannya dia memukul dan kakinya yang dengannya dia berjalan. Jika dia memohon sesuatu dari Aku nescaya Aku berikannya. Dan jika dia memohon perlindungan Aku (dari sesuatu) nescaya Aku akan melindunginya. Aku tidak pernah ragu dari sesuatu yang Aku lakukan seperti Aku ragu (hendak mengambil) nyawa hambaKu yang mu'min, di mana dia membenci maut sedang Aku tidak suka menyakitinya

Al-Bukhari

A lesson from Tamaki...

I always ask myself what makes me happy. I realized that its not really important what makes me happy, it is what makes others happy, that is what will make me happy. I mean, if i spent time in the dark wondering what make me happy, and all this confusion is wiping off the smile on my face, how would the people around me feel about that?

I recall that I also don’t like seeing my friends who separates themselves and always in the dark. I wouldn’t know much how to make them happy and that is somehow frustrating. If that is the case then how should my case be different? I have a few people telling me how much they miss that smile on my face and my cheerful spirit, I realize that I was happy before and that made others happy, so why am I still asking the same question?

I wanted to be save, but I don't know from what. I can feel it, there was a presence of a very strong live, always saving me... Allah, never had Allah abondoned me while I'm in this journey of finding myself... I feel like I had betrayed the One that truly Loves me, a Love that nobody in this world can compare to...

Have I been selfish...

Ramadhan O Ramadhan

one of my masterpieces that never made it out...hehe..

by Asma Sadia

One night I heard a knock on my door;
Who can it be,I wasn't quite sure.
I open the door and am filled with glee;


The visitor ahead is no stranger to me.
I welcome the guest with utmost delight;
For I know it has come to give me respite.


An air of happiness fills the space;
My home now seems, a better place!
Have you any clue who this visitor could be?


Yes!its Ramadhan,the month of mercy.
The pious and righteous can't await its arrival;
Others seem to greet it, with waves of denial.


For Allah(SWT) we fast from dawn to dusk;
For Him our breath is the fragrance of musk.
The muslims who pray and fast with zest;


Are aware of the rewards of this month manifest.
Throughout this month we weep and repent;


Now is the time to strongly lament.
And those who shun this sacred month;
on the Day of Reckoning will face the brunt.


In the last ten nights,hides the Night of Decree;
Allah(SWT) then awaits for his slaves to plea.
The angels descend with Gabriel(AS) in the lead;
To check on the steadfast and record every deed.


A feeling of grief now fills my heart;
As the month of Ramadhan will soon depart.
So lets make a start and worship Him alone;
Now that the worth of this month is known.

From Hero to Zero

have you ever wonder

is it okay to go pull the breaks?

just stop and watch the world passes by for a moment

stop, to actually sit and think

why am i here?

what do i want?

am i happy?

what actually happen?

but you never did

too scared to let go

still binded by a strong ego

the so called your own "hero"

never wanting to feel what it's like

to laugh again and wonder

how did i end up....

Chorus:

from hero

to zero

that's when you let go

to see the other side of yourself

from a true but broken mirror

don't lie

watch yourself as you fall

and then stand up again

from the ruins of your success

using a concrete of hope

still catching your dreams

looking back

the sandcastle that you build 

may be more beautiful than what u see of others

but it can still be destroyed

from just a single wave

don't try

try to build it back

from the same sins and guilt

coz it will not be the same

nor stronger to stand the viscous ocean wrath

that's when u end up....

Chorus

from hero

to zero

that's when you let go

to see the other side of yourself

from a true but broken mirror

don't lie

watch yourself as you fall

and then stand up again

from the ruins of your success

using a concrete of hope

still catching your dreams

what makes a hero?

when do we become a zero?

do we make sacrifices for others?

or are we just saving ourselves?

Princesses & the Veil

My Artwork

Ever since I sign up for Surau's Organization and was elected as the PMP (penerbitan,Multimedia & Publisit) of BEST ArRazi,I've been doing a lot of posters.I know creating arts was fun, but this is something else... Being able to do what we love at the same time gain so much benifits from it, only Allah knows how grateful I am to be apart of BEST Ar-Razi...

So this post is specially made to embed the memory being one of the PMP for BEST Ar-Razi, truly is THE BEST experience ever! :)

this was my first artwork...haha..kinda shaky..

I think this is d best i made so far..this is my favorite one

there will be more MABIT posters,insyaAllah...

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sometimes I have to make 2 versions to ease the process of printing

sometimes i have to make "express posters"...but i guess its not that bad...

I was hoping to make a very cool poster for perasmian,but there was so little idea and so little skills, so i came up with these two instead...haha...

beside posters,backdrop is also one of my areas of specialty...:D

Is it okay?

Is it okay

for me to sit here

wasting my time

on worthless stuffs

waiting to get amused

to fill some empty holes

Is it okay

for me to think

that breaking promises

is considered legal

just because

i am depressed

Is it okay

for me to say

that today its okay

when i'm not sure

will there be tomorrow

Is it okay

for me to keep on

when all i gain

is what i hate

Is it okay

for me to follow

what i always prevent

just because

they are doing it

Is it okay

if i say it out loud

what i feel

because then they will

surely got hurt

Is it okay

for me to blame

others for it

when i'm alone

digging a deadly grave

Is it okay

that if i do something

i dont include

them in my scheme

at the end of day

considered selfish

Is it okay

if i did it

and all i gain

is just their hate

and their annoyance

Is it okay

for me to think

what will happen to them

if i try to change it

when i'm alone

is not in their head

Is it okay

for me....?

does it matter if its okay to them....?

when does a principle got broken...?

when does the strong gets weaken...?

Its not okay

Its not okay

So stand up

fix it...

and make it okay again.....